I always do the same mistake – quickly fall in love with a young beautiful, flirtatious woman. I do the most romantic things to please her, I try to give the best of me but then I end up so hurt and disappointed. Because none of them really appreciate me for who I really am, they are all just so selfish. Maybe is time to leave Indonesia. If I stay here I will end up suffering even more, I know. I have seen enough here, and it’s pretty clear how things work. The good, educated and wise women will stay away from foreigners, go for the good local men. The rest are up for grabs but it is difficult to trust them. And it’s not just Indonesia, things are pretty much the same in any of the Asian countries I visited, particularly where there is poverty Thailand, Malaysia, Philippines, China: a western man is seen as an opportunity. You can use that at your advantage, meet a lot of women who are ready to throw themselves at you. But eventually you realize that you are just part of a game, nothing but a game. Some women are good at painting a rosy picture that yes indeed they can be good wives. But that’s just because they smell money and a better life. If things deteriorate and they no longer see an opportunity with you, they for will quickly vanish and try the same with the next man that shows up. After all there is plenty of supplies of men here, from many parts of the world, and after a few hit and miss, eventually a big fish will strike. But do I want to be one of them and do I want to be part of this game?