I’ve been thinking for a while now that I should write my first post in English. I sometime publish song lyrics in English but I never write something of my own. I am sure I will be making some of my non-English speaking readers mad for that. But today I need it. It’s funny, it’s like going to a retreat, or write something privately after 3 years of posts in Italian… It will certainly add a new dimension to this blog. And I think I should try, after all, I use English for living everyday and sometime even I dream or think in English. Not to mention that most of my friends speak English, so maybe it’ll be a good idea, a new territory to explore…

It’s been a crazy beginning of the year, a crazy month, a crazy adventure… Can’t get my mind off of what happened to me last week. But today I was also thinking about my good old friend Toni “Il Palazzinaro”, who lives in Seattle and was born in Rome. He spent a life chasing women, a typical Italian womanizer. I’d say he probably slept with hundreds of women in his life, at least so he claims…. He said to me one day with his strong Roman accent: “Davide, remember this. When you realize you are falling in love with a girl that’s it, that’s your warning signal… it’s when you have to step back and stop from getting yourself involved. Otherwise if you let it happen, then… it’s too late. That’s how you stay in the game and protect yourself.”

It seems that as the years go by I am getting good at that. However the sad part is that I feel like it’s more the feelings I give that the ones that I receive back. And it’s not that the girls aren’t reciprocating, they actually try hard but I don’t let it get to me. The wall I built is too high… But when you were hurt inside, that’s what ends up happening. And my hurt starts from when I was little, at least that’s what I have been told…

Wow, that wasn’t too bad… But it felt like I was talking to myself and no one’s listening…